Year One: Guess what i made it.

You could say i love rolling on E. My gas tank is alway's empty. There is nothing left for me to be fueled by, but somehow i alway's come out on top.

My top may not be even close to what you would call "Coming out on top." Maybe i see the world from a view that you couldn't even comprehend. Maybe i'm different. Maybe i'll never change. What is "change?"cause to change; make different; cause a transformation I change everyday. Some transformation's are only for the setting i'm in. Some are for the spot i am in life. Some are because i would rather not be threatened with my own life. Some are because i'm smart enough to know how to act, because i have been there, or do not want to go there.

Water. How can one element of this world mean so much to us? We HAVE to have water to survive. It's the only thing in this world that keep's us going. Without it, we would surely die. If we did not consume this element daily we could not live. We could not be with our family's. We could not have joy in our everyday live's. We would suffer to death.

Locked away, the key has been thrown away. You are left with nothing, but hardened clay, molten sand, molten ore. There's a knocking at the door. You hear a murmur of a typical name. You hear yourself say that you are there that day. You retire back to your ore. You forget about the knocking at the door. You return to that place you call home. That place you cannot understand. The voice box sends out another message. You answer. You obey. You do everything it says. You eat when it calls. You rise to walk the halls. To study. To prayer. To excercise. Their is always a gloomy light in the air. You are never alone. Their is somebody always there. The dark figure, or the shiny star. Somebody. Somebody is alway's watching you. You are not alone. You never will be. You will always have somebody there for you. Somebody to hurt. Somebody to love. Somebody to break down. Somebody to build you back up. We all have everything we need. We all will only be given what we can handle. We all are perfect. We just do not know it yet. We are living our life that we chose. We knew what we were getting into. We are the last seed to walk this earth. We make it what it is. There is no telling right now how this all came to be, but soon we will all know how. How this world was created. How tree's grew to be tree's. How we could love like we all got our own cup. How we could walk on water everyday, and not realize it was the ground that was our water way. We were walking on it all along. Everything is pure if you can see it my way. If you lived another day, would you make it better then today? Would you cool it down a little? Or heat thing's up? Would you stop doing what you know is wrong? Would you stop getting after what it is that you love? Would you put your favorite piece of earth down? Would you say "i love you" just a few more time's to everyone? or would you have to say it to that one person you never said it to, cause you never said it? Are you shaking your head at the fact i'm writing this? If so i feel sorry for you. You need help.

You: is the second-person personal pronoun in Modern English

Need: a condition requiring relief.

Help: give help or assistance.

Want: desire: feel or have a desire for; want strongly

Isn't it funny how he/she always say's she "need's" you in his/her current condition that is requiring relief, but someone can give her the same relief, and in most cases someone else bring's the relief. It's just a condition. There's not ONE cure. Or when you ask him/her about their feeling's and he/she "want's" you. Want is a Desire. Desire is a Hope. Hope: expect, and wish.

Break down your life. See where it's going. Remember you have only one of your own, or for some of you who have many live's to watch over. Remember we all only have one. Spread peace, and love for your people, and that big man above. Your always under the spotlight. Whether you like it, or notice it. You are being recorded. You aren't any better then anyone else. Everyone is pure. There "someday" just might not be today, and you should be looking forward to tomorrow. It's going to be the best day of your life, cause you lived to see it. In the rain storm instead of staying dry, and never knowing what it feels like to be him. You stepped into the storm. You got all wet, and you lived to tell about the day it rained freedom. Freedom is rain. Rain is water, and you are too. Make it storm, i know better. I'm free. Blessing's from him, to me. Free.

5 Months Since My Last Confession

It's been 5 short months. I have had many experiences. Many troubles. Many Great "thing's" happen. Most of all.

I am still here.

What more could you ask for then to ask God just to take you to heaven? Well i wouldn't. I would rather stay here, for now and work.

If i could i would make everybody happy. If i could i would give away all my money, if i had any. If i could i would fill up everyones drink to the top.

I cannot.

Have i failed? Hardly, i am only 20. Do i have any beverage to serve? Maybe a little. Do i have some money? Barely. Can i make everybody happy? In a sense, i can.

We take for granted everything good in our life. Daily i have been practicing, not, doing that. So far i have made some progress. Enough to brag about, yes, enough for a Nobel Peace Prize. Nope.

My short term memory seem's to be fading. My balance is just a bit off. I find myself to stumble a few time's a day. Why do you do that? Idk. I have came up with the most heart wrenching answers. Yet i still have not been to the doctor. Why not? Idk...

I thought i could type a lot, but my brain tricked me. I'm tired, losing it for the night.

Dying inside, knowing it, but not being able to change.

I'm dying on the inside, like a slow cancer that is irreversible. You can only fight it for so long, it will act like it has gone away. Then suddenly out of thin air it's back, and worse then ever. They say Heroine users etc... When they quit doing those hard drugs, and go clean. They instead of having a tolerance to that drug. They get a negative tolerance so when they use that drug again, its worse then someone just starting there first time. Thats why you hear of people relapsing, overdosing, and dying. Well that's how my heart feels about that girl. I get a tolerance of her. I quit. I come back, and get hurt worse. I'm dying on the inside. I can't make this feeling go away. Theres no pill in the world that could permanently do what i need. No drug, no drink, no person. Maybe god, but that's not likely cause i must be ment for this pain, right? He will never give you a trial you cannot handle. Well this trial stinks. I'm dying inside, and nobody can help me.

Blocking, deleting, ignoring....oh the police.

If you don't want to speak to someone just tell them, and stick with it. How mature are we? If you don't like them, don't talk to them. If they bug you, let them know. If your ignoring them. Tell them why, and stick with it. I'm sick of all these immature people out there blocking people, deleting them, ignoring them, even calling the cops on them for the lamest things. What ever happened to calling someone up, and saying hey "leave me the *#($*#& alone?" but in a nice, respectful mature way? If someone took offense, then the offended needs to let the other know. Once upon a time a policeman would watch a fight til someone hit the ground then send them home. Now they pepper spray you, taze you a little, call the drug dog, blood test you, send you to a psychiatrist, then tell your parents. Am i exaggerating? Ha maybe if i lived 10 years ago.

This world is coming to an end.

The weather won't be consistent. It's may and the sun can't decide if its going to shine, it gets cold, hot, cold, ok, hot. The last days are near, and i think we all know it. It doesn't take a genius to figure out that the weather isn't being consistent anymore. 5 years ago it would be 90 degrees right now. 3 years ago 75. 1 year ago 65. Now like 55 ish. When the end is near, you won't be able to tell what season it is. I couldn't tell you what season it is right now.

Protect your heart, but get a taste of the battle. Just don't waste it.

If you love someone tell them. If you are a girl, and think you shouldn't tell them your feelings. Screw that idea, and tell them how you feel. Guys can get swept off there feet too. I wish i had a girl come up to me, or call me, or text me, and spill her undying feelings for me. I would be the happiest kid in the world. I would probably feel what it was like to be in a womens shoes. No homo haha. Seriously though, if you think he's pushing you away on purpose, ask him why, and fix it. "He's" not always the man you wish he was. No man is that perfect, only french men are close to lady killers. So stop look at whats going on, do you see a pattern, a behavior that isn't normal? Is it fixable? Yes. Everything is and everything will be.

Player?

Or just scared of something so great that there afraid of losing it?

Player's eventually lose. There is no one that has never lost anything in there life. If you are reading this, and you think your the shiz cause your playing 5 girls, or 5 boys. Whoever you may be. I hate to break it to you, but your going to lose. Your no Hughe Heffner, or a Victoria Secret model. You are a PLAYER, and players ALWAYS lose. Don't take your chances. pick the dice with the same number on it, 1, not the one with 6 different risks, outcomes. Whatever it may be.

You would never set your heart on a table, put 5 bullets in your 6 shooter. Spin the revolver, and point it at your heart, and shoot hoping its the empty slot. The point is you would never pull someone elses heart out, and do as i just said. So don't play that game. It's not even a game. It's a deadly trait. Yes, it's a trait. A skill. It's anti.

Garrett Thompson Vanished Records

Always talk to god, never listen to cops.

"My mac is my life, why is yours a gun son? Why do you wanna be a bum? Get like this, get your gun. You'll never win you'll never be sprung, can't dilate your life if your eye's will never open son. Thats real, that's young. Go out in the tree's, get your gun. Not that gun son, the gun of your tongue. Remember me? I was that line of symmetry, negative next to that tree. Best believe that made me, Me. Characteristic's of a real MC, believe God is your line of symmetry. You'll always be him and he'll never be you, hell is not a place for you to grasp, and be glued. Forever, never under that gun. Hell is where murder's are from, not the gun. Believe, theres a son."

A story

-G Brady

I am 447 years old, what?

"Baby don't worry, you are my only, you won't be lonely! Even if the sky is falling down!" -Jay Sean

Well my sky is falling, i'm lonely, and i'm worrying. Bit's of days are awesome. Seeing family is awesome. Seeing the next generation of you taking his first steps, and keep on stepping is awesome. I can see 4 generations of people all at once. That is so nice. I have a better life then probably 60% of the world. So why do i dare complain? I shouldn't. I got it good. I have food on my plate everyday. I have a roof over my head. Heck i got warm water! My dad decided to put a new water heater in today. So the water in this house for sure will be hot for the remainder of this houses life. I got it good, if your reading this. You have it good. You have a computer. Kid's all around the world still dream of having a computer. They even dream of just using one. So i'm not going to say more then this.

My sky "feels" like it is falling. I "feel" lonely. I "feel" i got something to worry about.

Well those things i "feel" are no longer feelings. I call those feelings selfish. I am done being selfish in that area. That is not what, him, up above would want, its not what my parents would want, it's not what my friends would want. It's not what anyone in the right mind would ever want. So i won't stoop to that level. No one on earth deserve's that level. I don't care who you are, what you did, what color your skin is. You don't deserve it, so do not settle for less.

How old am i really? I swear i'm Hundred's of years old. I unlock new things within me everyday, and i know there nothing new to me. I think i'm Four Hundred and Fourty Seven.

How old are you? Ask yourself, maybe act that way plus 10 years. You might impress someone.

Negative writing is for sissy's. I'm not negative. I'm direct. I'm Blunt. I am Constructive Criticism. Ask me the truth about your situation. I will tell you. No lie.

-G Seriously Brady

Ramble, cause i need to.

I'm on a musical journey. Lemonade, its so simple and easy to make. Lemon Juice, Sugar, Water. Lemonade is life. You need 3 things.

Lemon Juice = A girl (Cause its sour, but essential) Once you get past the sour, and it sometimes burns your eye's. Your all good.

Sugar = Family, Friends, all the same, if, there true friends (There family)

Water = Your prayers. Even Lil' Wayne Prays. I'm sure that means you can, and he's doing one thing right. Life is easy, you just have to have the right ingredients.

Sober.

If you can find happiness there. Your set. I'm set, get set. It's about time to go.

Thin ice. Your walking on it.

Don't test the ice to see how fragile it is. You wouldn't want someone to test how fragile you are. Yeah I'm tough, but I'm fragile too. I would be stupid not to be fragile in a way. Everything can be broken. Everything. Whether it is physical, mental, spiritual. Whatever it may be. You can surely break it. Lose it too. If you want to test how fragile i am, i surely will lose you. Don't do it. I would rather have you around, then HAVE to lose you. Yes "have" too. I about have to lose you. Your no good for me, you only crack me. I'm about to break. I'm about to step off that frozen lake.

This blog is going nowhere, but neither am I so i might as well.

I don't really have much to say tonight. I have felt all these emotions today, happy happy, sad, disappointed, chill, even emotionless. I'm numb. Save me before it becomes permanent. I need you. Yet i don't HAVE to have you. I'm realistic. There's more fish.

I'm young, very fly, coolest kid around, got plenty of friends, amazing family, but I'm no better then you. I promise.

I'm average, I'm you. Your me. So don't judge me. Your only judging yourself. If you say somebody is a bad person, your only saying your a good person. Your judging your own self as good, and them as bad. Sounds fishy to me.

I'm out, I'm rambling.

Freebird. Shorty.

Sincerely,

GarrettBrady, Me.

I'm not repeating anything. You are just getting the point.

Will they ever get it? I, or even people don't like trouble. Most run when they see the site of trouble. I use to stick around for trouble, but now i live it simple. If there's trouble run! Then walk back slow, and see what happened. If there's anything left. Its yours. So much for "If you love them set them free... if they come back they are yours." Such a horrible statement i decided. If you let them go. There going to go 98% of the time.

2% chance, don't test your luck.

I tested the waters. They were cold, so cold, as to wash all the pain away, and leave you with nothing. All you are left with is yourself once again. No pain. Your numb. Nothing matters. Nobody cares. Your not getting anything now, and your not going to for awhile. Unless you work that hard again. Step onto that # 1 pedestal, and achieve that greatness once again. When you get that greatness again this time. Accept it. Embrace it. Keep it. Run til' you can't run anymore. Michael Johnson only stopped cause he didn't wanna get beat over, and over. He accepted it. He took his medals, and kept them on his neck. Don't wait for the next person that's faster, you might not be able to catch up. Don't squeeze everything for all its worth, pick what your going to test your luck on. Don't just do it on everyone, and everything.

I'm never wrong, i am always right. I will never accept defeat, cause i got an excuse.

Stop making up excuses for everything. Stop justifying everything you do. Stop using the "idk" answer. It is NOT an answer, its an excuse or a justification. It is instant incrimination. Go tell a judge "I don't know." They will murder you verbally right there. Save someone the heart ache. No excuses, just tell the truth.

Example:

Q: Why do you continue to talk to him still?

"The" Answer: Idk thought we could be friends still.

Real Answer: Cause i still have feelings for him, i'm sorry.

Oh how i would kill for that kind of honesty. That leaves you with so many less roads to drive down. You got the truth now you can either do what most people would do in that situation, and leave, or stick around, and try your luck. Honesty saves people so much time, and effort. Speeds up the process of everything. 10 less questions to ask in a day. 10 less lie's in a day. 10 less hours wasted thinking about why she thinks "They can still be friends, is she serious? does she still like him? Have they been sneaking around? Did she kiss him? Is there something i don't know about? Am i getting played?" Oh the list could go on for days.

If they don't have a name. You SHOULD be worried.

"I'm just with some friends"

WHO ARE THESE FRIENDS? Why can't people just say name's anymore? Yes, maybe the name's don't matter but would it hurt to take 5 more seconds, and say the few names. Yes, it would hurt. They didn't tell you the name's, cause they know it might hurt you. They aren't stupid. You may barely know them, and just met them. In the back of there head though, they are thinking "Maybe i could possibly like him in the future, i don't want to scare him off by naming off all these dudes. So i will just call them "friends." Or "I'm in deep with him, and i'm screwing up i'll use the friend excuse to cover this "situation" up. No need to say more, your getting the point. Cut the crap. Let him or her be. Stop with the player swagger, and except it. Your just to big of a free bird right now to settle for One. Your stupid, stop being stupid ;)

I'm a big deal, i just dunno how big of a deal yet. I'm only 19.

Talk yourself up. Don't wait for someone else to make you feel good about yourself. You don't have to fit in anywhere to be great. No one has to tell you your great, to think your great. Everyone is great. If i could start a company right now, and had the money. I could hire all of you, and would find a perfect place to put you, and you would do great. I would end up being a Billionaire. You would end up being a millionaire. I believed in you. Believe in people. You will achieve greatness just for that. Someone along the road will remember, YOU believed in them. When no one else did. So don't be suprised if you get picked up along the road. You were great, and didn't even know it. You knew it all along though. You would just never accept it.

What is this kid talking about?

I don't know. My brain is more complex then i can put a hold on. I got 3 thoughts going at one time. I can write this blog, watch a movie, and facebook all at the same time, even be thinking about what i'm doing tomorrow. There are 4 things at once right there. I can't explain it. What is the meaning of this complexness that i have?

Am i ment for something, or am i just significantly messed up. Haha. I don't know. In 5 years ask me. I'll have the answer by then. If i don't. Punch me in the face, and ask me what i'm doing with my life. I won't be mad. I'll understand.

I live in Brady Motion.

Music, get lost in it. It's you. I'll write a book. I'll live an incredible life. I'll get the prettiest girl on earth. I'll do lot's of things. Fast forward to the last sentence in the Movie "Wanted."---------- "What the .... have you done lately?"

Think myself to death before i'm Snoozin. Then you think i'm Losin, nah, i'm dreamin.

--BG Thom

The End, ready for the Beginning.

The never ending text battle. We have all had it. That's why i have said for months. "Lets just talk in person about things or call each other on the phone. Enough text it's ruining us."

Technology go away your ruining my life.

All these new avenue's that are being opened up for us all are actually killing us. Slowly but surely will get our peace of mind on how to communicate with someone, become unfaithful, lose it all. Its always that Hollywood movie scene. Never the simplest, most logical way. It's always gotta be movie style. The tension builds, the scene is set. Then the climax out of nowhere. Then there is no point in watching any longer, it's "The End." Everyone leaves, people talk about it for a little. Ask you about it off, and on. Eventually it fades to black. No one remembers but you.

The government.

Someone has to control something, so we can rebel. Without rebellion. Our country would be no fun.

We all have dreams we probably will never get to live.

I told everyone 6 months ago that i would go on a date with Miley Cyrus within a Year. Who wouldn't wanna Party in the U.S.A. with her ha ha. :) its been 6 months, and there has been no date. Well for one i haven't even tried to do so. No wonder it has never happened. All talk, no walk. Of course I'll never go on a date with her. I can tell someone anything, it doesn't mean its going to be done. It's not right is it. So why does everyone do it? Why do we all dream of things that will never happen? There is no dream to big or to great unless it is unrealistic, fiction. Dating Miley Cyrus actually could happen. I would just have to go creepy stalker, figure out a bunch of info about her, accidentally see her somewhere, act like i don't know her, impress her, get her curious about me, make fun of her a little. I'm in.

That takes a lot of work.

Yeah, but it is so worth it. I'm so worth it, so call me "Miley Cyrus" I'm possible. Just another person. You just gotta get it. Go get it, nice guys don't finish last, they just don't have any game. Bad guys finish first, but there glory only lasts so long. The nice guy just wins the next race. If you look around, and take a look for a second. You will realize 2 beautiful people is rare in a marriage. You always see the average guy, with the most beautiful girl. He's got both worlds.

Any girl i have actually really liked a lot, for some reason it takes the longest time to kiss them. Why is this? Do i have more respect then the girls i kissed quickly? Am i scared of them? Am i "spittin' my game" til i have them trapped? Why does this happen with them? Do i know something they don't know? Maybe i do. Maybe i got some 6th sense i don't know how to use. I think i might. I can tell when something is wrong with someone. When some thought has crossed there mind. I know exactly when that happens. Its a curse. I never know when to ignore when i know something is wrong. I always ignore the things that matter, and confront the things that don't. Stop. Step back, take a second, a minute, and hour, a day. Realize whats important to confront, and whats ignorable. I'm guilty of all these, but i don't want to be anymore.

There's plenty of fish in the sea, but i want that fish.

You keep the sunshine, save me the rain.

That's what she said... ohhh.

Once sentence can ruin a whole entire blog, so think before you say stuff. Look at how much something means to you. Stop what your doing, and be a better person. Your losing the best people of your life.

Think about it.

Nough' said. - G Smalls Brady

Short, simple, sweet.

Tonight i do not want to type very long. I don't really feel like it. Will see how long this dragsssss on. When will people realize we live in a small town? Everything gets around. Everything you don't want that certain person to know.

There going to hear it.

I'm positive i know more about you then you want me to know, or its one or two calls away. I don't like digging things up. So be careful when you are digging. You can strike gold, or uncover a never ending hole of stuff you rather had not uncovered, and wish you didn't find out.

If you don't want people to talk, keep it to yourself, or better yet don't do stuff that makes you look stupid.

That was some common sense right there. If you love someone, love them only. If you like someone like them only. If you want them to be faithful, be faithful as well. If you don't want them hanging out with someone of the opposite sex, do so yourself. If you don't want them texting someone of the opposite sex, don't do it either. Double standards are for "battered women." or even a "battered man" there is such thing.

It's only common sense, when will you learn?... Today. Learn today. Life is simple, survive to the end. Thats all you gotta do. Keep it simple, stop acting like life is Mount Everest.

You don't climb it. You ride it, its a bike. You don't have to take it downhill, just cruise.

-Me, G.

A.D.H.D.

-(Thank's MrChristopherMichael)-

Every night when i write this i am on a musical journey. Yes i listen to music while i write. Music is an inspiration to everyone. Everyone can relate to music. It is a way for us to express ourselves, or find comfort. Find comfort? What are you talking about? Music is comforting? You think you just like the beat or it sounds good? Yes. 99% of people hate the sound of fingernails on a chalkboard (me idc) but you hate it cause its uncomfortable to your ears. Most people love the sound of the ocean crashing into the beach. Why? Because it is comforting, it has a set rhythm only changing slowly, not even enough to notice. The transition is perfect. One horribly made song might be music to someones ears, and trash to the other.

I love country music, but i don't like to listen to it.

Why is this G?

Cause it reminds me of everything that gives you worst feelings. Yes i'm using the stereotype of country music. My first song i gave a girlfriend to be her song was "My Little Girl" by Tim McGraw. It is purely a song about a father giving his daughter to a boy for marriage. Except i turned it into and older boy showing the younger girl (girlfriend) the right way to go, being that special someone, and always being wrapped around his finger. As you can probably tell that song didn't work out, theres nobody wrapped around anyone's finger. There was no setting her on a path. Country music was ruined. Traumatized i was.

Oh well.

What can you do? Yes i could tough it up, and spin a little country music yet i do not want to be reminded of anything purely for the sake of my already bashed, and bruised "heart." You could say it has been broken, but i know if my "heart" was ever broken it would bleed all over, and it has not done that. Oh silly Garrett it is a metaphor! That metaphor is completely wrong. The only excuse for a broken "heart" is your spouse dying on you that you've known for, oh will say over 30 years when theres no getting them back, or you get cheated on by your wife. That would break my "heart", but a silly girl at the age of 20 is going to do no such thing other then severely bruise it good, and rub it in the dirt a little. Thats why we all have this little ability we call learning. It's great. We use it everyday. I'm not going to say anymore about that, cause that is common sense. you should know better then to have that explained.

"..you should put me in your blog" There you go "T.J." you are in my blog. I might have just made her day right there. This girl read my blog, and told me i should put her in it. That was 6 hours ago, i barely know her, she seems sweet, young, and is going to get the best guy around. Do you understand what i'm getting at here? Make someone you barely know, or is even a complete strangers day, either by doing something they ask or doing something they didn't ask for. The simplest thing you can do for an elderly person is talk to them for 2 mins, or even just say hello. It doesn't take much to make someone's day, care for someone you don't know.

One sentence the other day, made my day full of crap all the sudden seem worth something.

"garrett, you make me so happy"

A almost stranger told me that. One little sentence, and i was struck with joy. The simplest thing of all things to be said, struck a boy with joy? Wow. How cool is that. Asking that old man when you pass him in Wal-Mart how is day is, did that just make his day? Potentially yes. We don't know, we might never know, but wouldn't you feel better knowing you POTENTIALLY could have. You could stop some poor picked on girl from potentially killing herself that day by just saying "Hi how are you? Have a good day." Two small phrases potentially could have affected a whole family. I'm not saying i have thought about killing myself and that one sentence saved my life. I am NOT saying that at all. I am just going with my thoughts, improvising with every sentence. Going with what i feel and never having a topic.

This is how life is.

Its "like a box of chocolates. You never know what your gunna get."

Your imaginary box of chocolates doesn't come with a template showing you which ones are the caramel, and which are some cherry nonsense spit out of your mouth no good creation. You don't get that luxury, you can only control your life so much. By biting into the one's you think are right. Obviously if it looks no good, smell's no good, feels no good. (unless its sushi) Do not bite into. Huh? Don't bite into it. Use your common sense, but don't over exaggerate do not use your overactive imagination.

I've been struck down a hundred times over by my past. What past am i talking about? My relationship past. Your going to cheat on me. Your going to go back with her. Your going to do this. Your going to do that. Yet how can i cheat on you when you won't even give me the privilege of being your girlfriend. How can i forget her when you say her name 17 times a week? How can i prove to you that i'm not going to do these things? Weird, by being your boyfriend... So simple, yet people's brains, minds, souls, "hearts", whatever you may call it tell them something complicated which will never give that person there time to shine. They don't keep it simple, they make it complicated, a never ending roller coaster of smelly bulony. Like riding the "Mouse Ride" at lagoon, yet its a never ending ride. Every 20 feet your taking a 90 degree turn at what feels like 90 miles an hour,

left,

right,

left,

left,

stop,

straight,

right,

left,

getting thrown around in a senseless thrill. Riding it once was fun, my neck doesn't hurt to much, my "heart" only skipped a FEW beats. Yet my "heart" locked me in for 17 more rides. Finally i unbuckle my seatbelt, caught my breath, and ran off that ride. Am i to blame? Is she to blame? There are 2 parts to every story, i can't blame her. I got on the ride by my own free will. Buckled myself in, and started up the tracks, at any point I alone could have got off, cause it does stop after every ride. Yet I, myself stayed on. I am the one to blame.

I know you feel where i am coming from, you may or may not be able to relate to this nonsense. Yet i know you get what i'm saying. Your mind is quick, and simple. It doesn't like to process complex things unless you train it too. I could pull out complex physics, i could tell you that Gravity pulls at a rate of 9.583 Meters per second, but that is nonsense unless you have a need for it. Yes gravity keeps our bodies from potentially exploding,but its nothing to rattle your noodle with, unless you need it.

So many avenues a brain can drive on, yet one is never good enough, and a few is to much.

Where will i be in 5 years? I don't know. Where do i want to be in 5 years is a much better question. I want to be hopefully with the love of my life, either almost ready to marry, engaged, or well into our marriage. I want to be a Music Producer at this point. That will all be determined over the course of this year. I want a lot of things, but minimal things i have been given to work with. Yes i got a great life, great family, great friends, yet nothing of my own. What do you mean? They are yours G. I mean i don't have anything to show for myself, except for regular things everyone has. Yes there are already Music Producers, but i can be as unique as i want with that. Bring to the table something that nobody, but ME has to offer. We are all unique. Stop trying to be part of the cool crowd, or do things that people want you to do. Do what you want if its right, don't conflict with other things in the process, but make sure it's not selfish. My music i want to make, is not going to be close to selfish, i will give everyone something to relate to. Bring so many people along, make it big, not for me, but for everyone else. Yeah right GarrettBrady everyone wants to do that too! Everyone says the same to everyone with that dream. Everyone says there different i can make it. I'm not saying i'm going to make it, but i'm sure going to try and live that dream. Our dreams only last less then 8 hours, most people have 7 dreams a night. So let me have one for a minute. Just one, that could be the best hour and a half EVER.

Ask someone how they are after you read this. Just one, you'll change the world. One hello. One gesture. One hand shake changes the world. I'll tell someone about you, something great. I'm definitely not typing how i look, or writing what my stereotype is. You'll never be able to judge me cause i'll always be innocent of any charge that i was guilty of before you find proof to charge me with it. What? Its all about learning, adapting, and changing. Guilty as charged i am.

-GBrady clearly messed up i admit it ;)

“If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were.” -Richard Bach

Hmmmm well i loved them, i set them free, they haven't came back yet, then they never were.

I guess i'm not looking far down the road like i should. They could come back in minutes, hours, days, months, years... That is just to far for me to be thinking about. So as of now. There not coming back. I don't need to clutter my mind with something that is non existent. They don't love you like you do them, so keep it simple, stop, think how stupid you are, fix your thinking error, and move on. If they come back, don't let them run a "hail marry" on you again.

We have experiences so that we can grow, and become stronger. Not so we can feel bad all the time, and sulk over something that is not existing. It doesn't exist, your just imagining it does. We let our imaginations control us. We imagine something of a perfect life, and only hurt our feelings. Imaginations are very good when used the right way, but they definitely are not good for relationships. Its like asking someone "did you go with him/her?" when you already have your mind made up that he or she did. So what is the point of this silly question? To make your imagination a reality. So that all of your attention on that one imagination was worth all of the attention. In most cases you find that it wasn't worth even thinking about. It only made you stay up late nights thinking, it only made your heart fall into your stomach acid, it only created problems. What do you do th0ugh when that one day, that thing you keep thinking about, and sulking about, and getting hurt over, FINALLY, becomes a reality? You stop dead in your track's, smell the scent of loss, and let nature take it's course, but the simplest thing to do would be RUN. You have ran a hundred times over so don't forget your skill, use it.

We all are always looking for something else, until were married, and for some or most i should say these days, still are looking when they get married. Why are you searching so hard? Nothing, and no one is perfect. There are no 10's, cause i'm sure Heidi Clume has some weird toes, or Tyra Banks isn't getting any younger. So why do we search so hard, and ruin the best days of our live's?

Once upon a time you called up your favorite little buddy and asked him to play at 5 p.m. It was simple. Now you ask to hang, call twice, text 13 messages, wonder whats taking them so long, quiz quiz quiz, then finally they show up, and your imagination tells you they've been doing something wrong, but in all reality they were just being a kid. Living there life til' it was time to come. Doing nothing just slowly making there way there. All of us over think situations way to much these days. We all think we have something to prove always. I am guilty. Yes i said it, I AM.

What happened to the simple days when you asked a girl on a date. Showed up at her house at 8 p.m. (when you said) knocked on the door, met the father, walked back to your car, opened her door, and from there its history.

I wanna live in 1976. Live life, not live technology. I live to play, yet live to work, waste time to facebook, text cause i'm lazy, call cause its not quick enough, think to much cause i'm bored, get my heart broken cause i expect to much. What has gone wrong with this generation?

Everything.

We suck, and we all know it.

I know i'm making huge changes in my life, everyday, every moment. If you looked at me 6 months ago, most would shake there heads unsatisfied. I know i'm ment for great things. I feel i am, i think i am, i know i am. The only thing is, when am i going to do these great things? Cause i sure haven't done anything "great" lately, and don't feel i've made any "great" money, or been on any great path. Maybe spiritually i have been. Wait... yes i have been. I'm 95% spiritual, but only 5% material. Everyone ignores what i just said in that 95%. I'm measuring greatness in money. When i should be measuring my greatness in my own well being. So i guess i'm actually 50% spiritual, 45% lost, and 5% material, cause i sure have no money, i don't know where i'm going, and i got the spiritual part down to pretty much a T. So whats next? Will i be found? Will i get something material? Or will i forever be lost no matter what i have, or what i did achieve or will achieve? Idk, someone will answer those questions some day. Not anyone i know, but someone. Someone will. The blog of nonsense. - GarrettBrady

Never ending tips, a different kind of "Blog."

"garrett, you make me happy"

Coming from a pretty much complete stranger can suprise anyone. At that point in life you know you did something right. You know that its not all about you. Its about everyone else. Don't get me wrong. I care a lot about myself, but i know life is about everyone else. I know that I have had hundreds of experiences that would suprise anyone. Hundreds that you couldn't get, will say, living the "right way," but do i regret any of them? In a realistic stand point, NO! That would be stupid to regret them. No one regrets anything, they just do not like the consequences, which 99% of the time. Suck. If i never lived thru any of these experiences where would i be at right now? I don't know the answer to that, frankly i don't think anyone does. Would i be in school? Would i be in Europe? Would i be in the same spot i am now just a whole different plot to my story? Who knows.

You'll notice everything i write may not all flow together or even make sense to you. That is cause i am not backspacing i am just letting my thoughts flow freely out of my finger tips.

I could write for hours on end ranging from how i had a dream about lil wayne as a 17 year old, or how i'm listening to a Mashup artist named "GirlTalk" right now, and writing this "deep" blog at the same time. How does that work? How can you be writing your deep thoughts while your listening to club mashup songs that are definitely not depressing songs and definitely not slow. Maybe these words are not so deep because of it, or there just my thoughts as of right now.

"Nice Guys Finish Last." No your just ment for someone or something else more important then her...i'll stop right there and write something else.

Has your heart ever dropped into your quick to hit you, but slow burning stomach acid? I'm sure that feeling needs no explaining. I get that feeling every night, and i hate that feeling with a passion. Its that feeling you get when you hear someone you cared about has passed away, when you get cheated on by that special girl... The list goes on and on. As those happen to you more and more it seems it takes less to set off this feeling, as small as a text. As small as to make your heart start pounding out of your chest for nothing. Just a stupid word, in a stupid text. Some stupid letters that were put together, which in the end, hurt your feelings.

"Man it feels like these walls are closing in, this roof is cavin' in" -Eminem- The keyword there "feels" everything "feels" like its coming to an end. Everything "feels" like it: sucks, hurts, feels good, makes you happy, its right, its wrong---- So why not just turn off your feelings, its possible. People just don't realize the power they have in them to control what they feel and how they feel it. I can be so cold i have goose bumps all over my body, and then tell myself its not cold outside, and the goose bumps do not go away but suddenly i'm not shivering, and its doesn't "feel" cold. Explain that. I control me in, and out.

Your thinking "thats B.S. this kid can't stop himself from feeling cold what an idiot, i'm not reading this anymore!" Well believe it. You can too. Why else would you be able to EVENTUALLY get over your high school sweetheart? If you weren't in control of yourself there would be no getting over anything. Its just when you choose to control your feelings towards something.

She can go with him if she wants, but she's not going to be seeing me.

I'm going to put my random thoughts in there own sentences. No i didn't stop writing a paragraph, there just random thoughts. That thought is how i feel about that. You can decide am i going to chase this girl, am i going to fight for her, or am i going to say its simple "She can go with him if she wants, but she's not going to be seeing me." Thats simple. I like that. I may not agree with it myself in a way, but its simple. I like simple.

Try to hurt my feelings, i'm numb. Jokes on you. I may not come out on top, but i'll be looking up, and i can still throw a rock that high. It will hurt, trust me.

Take that how you want. I have no words for that subject. I just said it.

My day just got brighter, yet it is the night, a time for relaxing, bonding, sleep, and my favorite,... dreams. Write your conflicting thoughts out, take a lighter, burn them, you WILL feel better.

-G Brady signing off.